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classic j dies and goes to hell part 1
how could i ever sleep at night?
my conscience left me petrified
staring at the ceiling wide awake
reliving all my worst mistakes
til i finally got a decent job
and i got a place i'll never own
we'll knock some holes into the walls
to make it feel more like a home
how could i ever sleep at night?
when you left you left me paralyzed
tryna keep my head above the waves
holding out for brighter better days
and you boys just lift me up to let me down
every single time you come around
i'm making friends who don't know who i am
tryna turn the hurt into a brand
how could i ever sleep at night?
i'm blue dreaming about the better times
anything to bring me close to you
anything to take me back to
friday nights
foggy streets and christmas lights
wake me up on saturday
grab my hand and float away
into the abyss again
and i will always be your friend
so grab my hand
take my hand i can't do this alone.
na na na na nana na na
na na na na nana na na
na na na na nana na na
we'll make this feel more like a home
bedroom community
here it is again, a heart of excitement
in the form of a girl who hates her life
as she sits alone on the floor of her bedroom
waiting for answers, wasting time
here it is again, the son of a soldier,
remington shotgun, rolled up sleeves
to keep satan out of the walls of the suburbs
his last bastion of modernity
but satan waits upstairs, watching over his daughter
she writes emo songs, she's so depressed
her lyrics are naive but she still sings her heart out
the only way she knows how to confess
and as she gets up to shut the bedroom door behind her
he stands right beside her, she's trying to get her head on straight
with box dye hair to match her black thigh highs
and scratched nail polish, she performs feminity
she laughs so hard i watch her lose her balance, fall over backwards
to the arms of mephistopheles
but she'll never leave her bedroom in this bedroom community
you'll never be ok, k, if you don't come to your senses
with you everythings the end of the world
melancholia can spread like a virus
I'm sure you got it from that stupid girl
you'll never be ok, if you don't come to your senses
but I feel so defenseless, so alone
i thought he was right when he said that he loved me
he's still thinking of me from up there
and as they stop to look at her they won't look further,
like it's not a murder, it's an inevitable tragedy
the bloody hands of all the heartless fuckers
who emotionally fucked her to monetize her suffering
flipping through a spiral notebook for some
sad hopeless words to turn into a liturgy
so she'll never leave her bedroom in this bedroom community
da na na na naaa
na na na na na
na na na na na
na na na.
na na na na NA na
NAA nana na na
na na na na na
na na na.
no no no no no no no no no no
no no NO no, no no no no
nonono no no NO no
no no no no no no
no NO NO NO, no no no no
nonono no no NO no
no no no no no no no no no no
no nooo NO no, no no no no
nonono no no NO no
no we'll never leave our bedrooms,
we're a bedroom community
here it is again, a heart of excitement
in the form of a girl who hates her life
as she sits alone on the floor of her bedroom
waiting for answers, wasting time
(forever?????????)
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bone skull
"ughh i'm so miserable!!!"
blocks of empty storefronts renting to nobody,
dead cacti hang limply in old valley apartment hallways
i'm always making a list of all the people i'd help
if i wasn't helpless myself
standing motionless in doorways and parking lots
pigeons coo on the balconies
dilapidated couches, mattresses
i'd care about the future again if i knew i could last long enough.
oh oh ohhhh
oh oh ohhhh
oh oh ohhhh
oh oh ohhhh
neon glow
cold weather
na na na na na na na
na na na na na na na
na na na na na na na
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII love the way you make me feel
when i'm staring at my screen
at four AM,
trying not to fall asleep
and you hit me up just to see if i'm ok.
i loved it way too god damn much
when you told me you don't mind
when i keep you up
sending mamegoma lines
you know it's shit like that that makes me wanna be alive
i wanna say i think it's ok if we just don't both feel the same way
but i feel like we're more than just friends
cause it took six sad months to realize
i didn't miss the cold weather i just missed you and
i didn't miss the sweater weather i just missed you.
YOUUUUUUUU, youuuuuu
YOUUUUUUUU, youuuuuu
YOUUUUUUUU, youuuuuu
YOUUUUUUUU, youuuuuu
i used to think I'd get by fine
tryna hide what's on my mind
friendships felt feigned and
strangers' shapes seemed so unkind
i was alone in crowds but not alone in sentiment
i've been so isolated by
the time i trade to stay alive
brought up with the choice
of success or suicide
so i'll call in sick again just to spend the day with you
wanna say i think it's so gay that we really both feel the same way
that I feel, like we're more than just friends
it took too long to realize
i didn't miss the cold weather i just missed you
i didn't miss the sweater weather i just missed you.
i didn't miss orange county, i just missed you
i didn't miss 69 tarocco, i just missed you
i didn't miss culver city, i just missed you
or getting drunk outside the Smell NO i just missed you
cuz i don't need the cold weather like i need you
and i don't need the sweater weather i just neeeeeeed you.
na na na na na na na
na na na na na na na
na na na na na na na
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK! hahahaha
calico
some stray cat came through the backyard
must have climbed up some fences
you'll pick him up off the ground
and hold him in your arms
and you kiss on the head
and you tell him he's a lucky boy
you'll pick him up off the ground
and hold him in your arms
and you kiss on the head
and you tell him he's a lucky little
calico, don't go
you're not gonna leave him alone
you're not gonna leave him alone
you're not gonna leave him alone
you're not gonna leave him alone, oh oh
glass beach
i promise you're not wasting
anybody's time
and all the things they've told you
are so god damn rough, i understand
they said your friends will hurt you
and you're friends don't really care
you told me you're their daughter
and they treat you this way just to keep you safe.
so please listen clearly, i love you dearly
it hurts to see you so torn apart like this
another sleepless night
to laugh about the times we tried to die
with heavy eyes
i'll stay awake with you
and we'll keep us alive
til the morning comes
in here
you'll be ok
and when your heart breaks
i'll be beside you
so please
stay here with me
breathe in like waves
on a glass beach
IIIIIIIII stopped taking calls for the first time then I cut off my phone line
and took the highway one for nowhere south
when Yuki said i should just call up family
and tell them how i felt
no one who loves you should make you feel so unsafe
noooo no one who loves you should make you feel alone
in here
you'll be ok
and when your heart breaks
i'll be beside you
so please
stay here with me
breathe in like waves
on a glass beach
blood in your veins,
the blood on your hands
so stop it, you're fucking hurting her
can we forget about the places that we should be?
we don't have to go home today.
i'll sleep on a million couches,
if we have to, to keep us both safe.
until we can take back
the years they've stolen from us
we'll always live like we're
hopeless kids.
but when
we're with all our friends
can we just pretend
that no one can hurt us?
cause hey,
i love you, ok?
it's so hard to say
that i fucking need you too
tonight
when they close their eyes
look up to the sky
and climb up the moonlight
it's ours
the moon and the stars
they'll forget who we were
and we'll be together again.
sleep til the sun sets
sleep til the sun sets
sleep til the sun sets
the summer sun sets.
(blood rivers)
instrumental
dallas
it's lonely out there.
everywhere froze with you
everywhere froze with you
i was overcast in happy arms
i was overcast when the blood filled the highway underpass
i was overcast by 2000 floor rat castles
i was overcast by old god long dead cowboy billionaires
everywhere froze with you
everywhere froze with you
i was overcast in happy arms
i will give you love don't writhe don't bite stay motionless
i will give you love don't writhe don't bite stay motionless
i will give you blood it flows to you in endless rivers
you were the part of the picture
i can't recall
you were part of the skyline
i felt so small
you were the part of the picture
i can't recall
you were the part of the picture
i can't recall
you were part of the skyline
i felt so small
you were the part of the picture
i can't recall
i was overcast when the blood filled the highway underpass
i was overcast by 2000 floor rat castles
i was overcast by old god long dead cowboy billionaires
you were the part of the picture
i can't recall
you were part of the skyline
i felt so small
you were the part of the picture
i can't recall
(rat castle)
these days i don't know what to do
these days i don't know what to do with you
these days i don't know what to do
these days i don't know what to do with you
planetarium
i would like to explain everything
the words won't come out right
i would like to ignore the lock on the door
the words won't come out right
when you left you locked us in a burning building
candid cameras in every corner always filming
everybody running scrambling for an exit
helpless people running scrambling yeah we used to
play piano, placing palms in perfect patterns
crave capsacin in useless coups of connate caverns
sing succinctly, symbiotic, democratic
swing so sweetly, semiotics semiautomatic
i would like to explain everything
the words won't come out right
i would like to ignore the lock on the door
the words won't come out right
i guess he's the best but i've never known anyone else
i guess he's the best but i've never known anyone else
yeah you left us locked us in a burning building
yeah you left us locked us in a burning building
yeah you left us locked us in a burning building
yeah you left us locked us in a burning building
yeah you left us locked us in a burning building
candid cameras in every corner always filming
yeah you left us locked us in a burning building
yeah you left us locked us in a burning building
i would like to explain everything
the words won't come out right
i would like to ignore the lock on the door
the words won't come out right
yeah you left us
yeah you left us
yeah you left us locked us in a burning building
yeah you left us
yeah you left us
yeah you left us
yeah you left us
soft!!!!!!
yeah i know
know what you're thinking
it seems like i
just can't stop making
everything about myself
time goes by
and nothing's changing
but i stay here
and i stay waiting
all the time
i'm out of my mind
and i tell you i'll be better
but i can't guarantee it
cuz when you say that you think i'm perfect
well i really just can't see it
when i'm standing in the bathroom
and i'm crying in the mirror
cuz i just can't stop wondering
how could i get so soft?
yoshis island
i can't take the pressure
yeah everybody thinks that you just need to grow up
i know it's hard it's fucking impossible
tryna make sense of the things that you feel now
with spiro and estro from vanuatu
what the hell do you think that'll do to you?
i won't say she cuz i know you want me to
i know that it's hard but i swear i still love you.
i can't take the pressure
cry on the bathroom floor when you look in the mirror.
cover your neck or they'll cut your head off.
j you're only cute with your hearteyes and legs crossed.
write the things you think when you're out of your body
run yourself out of words to say you're hopelessly lonely
and don't leave the city and DON'T leave the covers too
i know it's hard but i swear i still love you.
i'm never gonna understand.
i'm never gonna understand.
i'm everything you think about her
behind her back, the whole truth
does it hurt to say you love her like a son?
the world could her just cause she can't fit in right.
yeah!!! they'll make it so dangerous
when they leave no room to breathe in the space they carved out for us
when they get inside your head, give you white lies and black eyes
when they try to change your shape until your sense of self dies
but you make me feel like i'm out of my body
we ran out of words to say we're hopelessly lonely
so don't leave the city please don't leave the covers too
just stay right here babe let's live life like lovers do
i'm never gonna understand.
i'm never gonna understand.
i'm everything you think about her
behind her back, the whole truth
does it hurt to say you care about your son?
the world could her just cause she can't fit in right.
you take spiro and estro from vanuatu
you say you won't think about nothing but loving you
we're sleeping harbor seals on the seaside of malibu
ok i won't think about nothing but loving you
spiro and estro from vanuatu
you say you won't think about nothing but loving you
we're sleeping harbor seals on the seaside of malibu
ok i won't think about nothing but loving you too.
orchids
we watched the smoke clouds rise until we couldn't see the stars
and everyone was down below breathing in the fumes
one day we'll meet up on the moon and then we'll be ok
and we'll be together again
blue orchids bloom
through the city streets at night
into starlight we call out
"we're still here, can you hear me?"
from up above the moon
she's bathed in burning neon lights
as the starlight just fades out
there's no tears no celebration
blue orchids bloom
through the city streets at night
into starlight we fade out
there's no tears no celebration
from up above the moon
she's bathed in burning neon lights
as the starlight just fades out
there's no tears no celebration